I think the title of this blog sums up it’s message in a single sentence, and is is something I have grown to feel quite strongly about. I have been prescribed medications for anxiety/depression/PTSD, for two long term periods over … Read More

I could begin by rambling on about how being bored during the Covid pandemic inspired me to pursue a new skill/career/mindset etc, but being in a national lockdown was not the reason I decided to train to become a yoga … Read More

There are “fandoms” for many people/things on the internet, and I have never really had an interest in any of them, until I discovered the amazing community of pandas and various other wildlife lovers on Twitter! I first learned of … Read More

Whether you are following on from Part 1, or have just spontaneously splattered onto this post, allow me to present to you, another exquisite collection of my finest words and phrases.   POPSPLAT: The crangliest hippy ever, who loiters outside … Read More

As anyone who follows my online antics will know, I have a LOT of weird words that I just love to splatter into conversation and social media posts. None of them are particularly obvious as to what they mean either, … Read More

I was contacted again by Pinewood late 2019, to partake in three more days of Victorian/Edwardian hair styling, and this time there was someone taking “progress” photos from start to finish, that looked pretty cool, and I was allowed copies … Read More

I feel so lucky that over the past year, I have been cast on many opportunities to work at the prestigious Pinewood Studios, based in Slough, primarily as a hair model for period styles, such as Edwardian and Victorian, which … Read More

One of my favourite memories since I moved to London, has got to be the day I filmed a promotion for a sports company, which happened to be a parody of the hilarious fight scene from the film “Anchorman”! I … Read More

The second piece of work I have been given since working with Refuge UK, was a presentation/interview about the effects abuse can have on victims’ credit scores (Economical Abuse), which is unfortunately something I know about all too well! In … Read More

I am very happy to announce that as of late 2019, I am now an official media spokesperson for the highly established and respected UK based domestic violence/women’s charity, Refuge UK! They initially contacted me back in 2016 about me … Read More

In 2016 I frequently wrote articles for the established human rights website/blog https://www.antoinespeaks.co.uk/ touching on matters such as alcohol addiction, domestic violence and mental health. I have recently written another article about the somewhat taboo subject of victim blaming/shaming. I … Read More

Since I left my old house in Sussex, I genuinely feel I have the confidence to do anything (within reason) that I set my mind to (As cliche and cheesy as that may sound)! I can’t say I had ever … Read More

Yes, seriously! The last pleasant, stress free Christmas was in 2013, when I had not long moved to Kent, and went back to stay with my parents. Every festive season since then, has had some element of distress for me, … Read More

So here we go, once again- Yet another blog crying about my hardships and how I’ve run away yet again to start a wonderful new life somewhere else. Dark sarcasm aside though- Yes, unfortunately I did have to leave my … Read More

This is something that I have been debating writing about for a while now, for fear of sounding patronising or arrogant, but after discovering a few media outlets have published false information about the subject, I feel it is time … Read More

I just wanted to share the wonderful and very unexpected experience I had at this year’s London Film & Comic Con! As many people know, throughout my time in the adult industry I won/was nominated for, many awards both in … Read More

A short while ago, I was interviewed by a popular online entertainment website, about my life and career to date. I find usually when I am interviewed, whoever is editing the article will change my words/phrases to something generic, which … Read More

Over the past year, I have regained near enough all the confidence that I had lost in previous years (But thankfully without the mild amount of arrogance that I can admit I used to have prior to 2013!) One thing … Read More

Ever since I was around nine years old, I have always wanted to work in the comedy industry doing acting and/or stand up, and always kind of believed that one day I would achieve this. I’ve also never really spoke … Read More

First off, my apologies for this being my first post in almost a year- things in my life have been manic (In a good way) what with moving house, acquiring five cats…. yes that’s right, FIVE. (They will have their … Read More

This is definitely the weirdest thing to happen to me in a while, and I have a habit of attracting a LOT of weirdness! I was in Tesco, enjoying my Sunday and minding my own business as I did some … Read More

Ladies & gentlemen…. I present to you a WARNING of a heinous new scam sweeping the uk- HEDGEHOG FRAUD!!   Apparently some criminal masterminds from Chigwell are stealing photos of random “pedigree” hogs from Facebook groups, and falsely advertising them … Read More

I never seem to have “normal” encounters in nail salons of late- Perhaps it’s because the staff know that there are a million other places I’d rather be, or perhaps the fumes from their liquids/equipment has finally gone to their … Read More

Now I’m really not keen on sitting in a small room while someone pokes and prods my hands and nails for up to 90 minutes at the best of times, so the experience becomes 10 times worse when said salon … Read More

As many of you who follow my social media will probably know, my latest obsession has been with the tv show “Hoarders”, which is fundamentally a showcasing of some of the most insanely disgusting houses on the planet. Whilst I am … Read More

This is a hilarious story that I just had to share! A few weeks ago my friend hired a gardener from a commended local firm, as you do when you have a very busy schedule and the funds to be … Read More

A few weeks ago I went to Cornwall with my friend for a mini holiday and on our drive back to London we were starting to feel tired and lacking energy. It was almost midnight and we still had over … Read More

This is the conclusion to part 1, obviously. On the second day of my weekend staying at my old house in Bracknell, Dave took me for a drive to Windsor. The last time I had been there was in March … Read More

If you have read some of my REALLY older blogs, you will know that I used to live with the ol’ splodger that is DAVE TUBS!! He is basically, a farting, sharting bundle of beer stained tartan pyjamas- and one … Read More

Recently I have developed a real love of swimming and being in the water, and now it’s heading up to summer (Or what’s left of it in Britain nowadays) I have been meaning for ages to go to an outdoor … Read More

I’ve been lucky enough to attend lots of auditions/castings since I began my acting career, but one I had at the beginning of the year was honestly one of the weirdest half hours of my life! It was apparently a … Read More

This is a really fucking weird and frustrating incident which took place  year or so ago now, about some idiot from the pub breaking my new laptop for no apparent reason. Well I have a friend called Tom who I … Read More

Out of all the weird things I have seen on the hedgehog Facebook page, this one takes the fucking biscuit! Apparently there is a hedgehog somewhere near Woking, nicknamed “The Big One” who is morbidly obese to the point his “owners” … Read More

In the first part of my blog about the C9 I just talked about how much fun I had staying up north with my friend and her family, but in this part I’m going to gloat about the benefits of this … Read More

A few weeks ago I did what was probably one of the best things I have ever done- The Forever Healthy Living C9 full body cleanse! I have always been skeptical of any seemingly “miracle” speedy cleanse/weight loss programmes, however … Read More

A few months ago I was asked to be a guest on The Chrissy B Show, which is an evening talk show on Sky channel 203. On the programme they mainly discuss relationship and health related issues, and seemed to … Read More

This bloke I met at an awards show last year when I was drunk. This story is honestly a reminder to both myself and anyone else, why it’s not great to get drunk in a room containing a lot of … Read More

Last month I teamed up with two other female comedy actresses, Narin and Charlotte to do a controversial social experiment involving the Muslim Hijab. (The veil which cover’s the womens’ full bodies). Charlotte wanted to see how people in central … Read More

I’ve done way too much stuff recently to list it all, but just thought I would put a small update here as I’ve had an extremely productive month! I now work for a YouTube comedy/prank channel called SNG TV with … Read More

I wrote in my previous post about the crazy hedgehog fanatics in the Facebook group I innocently joined the other week- This is the follow up. I mean, it’s wonderful that they love their pets so much, but there is … Read More

Ok I have left my domestic abuse saga up for long enough now- It is time to return to posts about stupid shit, and it doesn’t get a lot weirder than this mental page I found on Facebook for hedgehog owners … Read More

The second week after I moved into my new West Sussex home one of my best friends, Sasha came to stay with me for a few days. We did a big food shop at Asda first to last us the … Read More

Well I have finally done it- I have moved to a gorgeous one bedroom apartment in West Sussex! It took me so long to be able to finally move, what with the financial wreckage I was in and my poor … Read More

A few weeks ago I was asked by award winning sex campaigner Charlotte Rose to appear as a special guest on her online radio show based in the beautiful Canary Wharf, London (One of my favourite places!). Of course I … Read More

Not long after I filmed the video for Barry Bee, he put me in touch with a guy called Ed who runs the YouTube channel, “Twattery”. He does lots of “awkward” videos, like asking strangers inappropriate questions and just generally … Read More

Very quickly at that! I was so chuffed when I was asked to take part in a documentary for BBC Radio 4 about adult stars trying to cross over into mainstream. I went down to a studio in London to … Read More

Last month I collaborated with another prank channel in London called Barry Bee Tv aka The Barry Banter Show. They make light hearted silly public games, in particular “Kissing Games”….. I had never heard of this before but it just basically … Read More

I saw this little game on Facebook and am quite impressed with my answers so I thought I would post them here. Enjoy.   A- Age: 24 B- Biggest Fear: Losing the love of my life (When I find him) … Read More

This actually happened last night and was pretty embarrassing! Me and my friend Andy went on a mad one in London and got totally pissed- It was a great evening until I arrived back in Medway to discover I no … Read More

As I am sure you all know (It gained worldwide coverage) in 2013 I had a small role in an episode of the extremely popular tv show Game Of Thrones! I was bind to a contract until the episode aired … Read More

Last week I went on a mini working holiday with my good friend and fellow model Amber West. Neither of us had been before so weren’t sure what to expect- However neither of us could have predicted how bizarre a … Read More

Prepare for another sex pest post….. Well actually this guy wasn’t so much a sex pest, but just a bit of a creepy oddball! In fact I can’t even be sure it was a dude a it’s profile picture on … Read More

This sounds really mental but is actually a really good thing to happen to me. I currently live in hotels working every day as I swear I will never go back to my house in Medway after some of the … Read More

Last month me and Cookie were lucky enough to get tickets to Garage Fest in London- We had been excited about it for ages and it didn’t disappoint! We went with Cookie’s sister Niomi and her friend and had a … Read More

It sounds a lot more gross than it is- It was a Trollstation prank me and another troll Narin performed on none other than the tube system in London! However unlike the original mucky video, we used Nutella chocolate spread … Read More

On the same day I did the pimps & hos Trollstation prank, we also decided to do a Valentine’s Day special to be released the day before the official 50 Shades Of Grey film. This took a daaaaaaaamn lotta guts … Read More

Doing what I have always known I was born to do- comedy!! I had a difficult time over Christmas with my private life and drinking- I ended up on a drip at A&E on Boxing Day because I drank way … Read More

I had been planning to start a YouTube channel for the last year but things kept getting in the way, like relationship problems and the fact every laptop I bought kept breaking! (One was dropped and the other had water … Read More

I really do and it is SO weird. I can only assume I went to school with this girl as her name and face seem vaguely familiar, but I don’t think she was in my year. This girl seems to … Read More

I currently live in Kent, through no choice my own though as I was booted out of my last home when someone robbed me. (Yes really I was the one who had to eave the house because the owner didn’t … Read More

A few moths ago I was lucky enough to chosen by a very talented drector to star in his new series for Television X, which was a parody of the popular TV show “Gogglebox” called “Gobblecocks”. I really enjoyed shootimg … Read More

‘Sup bruv Sorry for the lack of blog posts- not done one for over 6 months I believe! I have had a lot of shit going on in my private life with my partner and family. Anyway I have been … Read More

Ever since I set up a Facebook account I really have seemed to attract a lot of… “interesting” individuals. One I encountered recently, I like to refer to as the “Custard Pie Guy”. It is quite clearly a man in … Read More

This is really mental….. I went out with my friends last month for porn actress Jodie Lee’s birthday party in Leicester Square and we met this guy in a bar who words can’t even begin to explain- This dude is … Read More

This is the second half to my posting about my totally awesome trip to sunny Barcelona!! I loved every minute of my time there. On my last full day I didn’t really have a lot to do- Just one boy/girl … Read More

A few months ago I went to Barcelona for 4 days to shoot for Kemaco Entertainment who are a really cool production company over there! The flight over was awesome as it was really sunny and I had some amazing … Read More

I was so lucky to be asked by the AWESOME director Philippe Soine to go and film for him in Belgium last September!! He shoots a lot for Dorcel and his films are really artistic and well shot [:D] I … Read More

2013 was such an awesome year for me because I got the opportunity to visit some beautiful countries and shoot for some great European producers! In September I flew out to Valencia in Spain to shoot three boy/girl scenes and … Read More

A couple of months after I moved to Berkshire I went back down South to visit my family, cats and some friends for the weekend which was cool as it felt weird at first living away from my parents house! … Read More

Does what it says on the tin!!! I fucking hate them…… Well actually that’s not 100% true. I find them amusing to some extent as I like to take screen shots of their inbox messages and post them so all … Read More

I am writing this at 1am so will probably make some typos but who gives a shit! Towards the end of 2012 I realised that I really needed to move out of the town I lived in with my parents … Read More

I was lucky enough to get to work with the legendary photographer John Tisbury for his website Erotica- Babes. I had contacted him about work a couple of months before, and I get the impression he is selective about who … Read More

This actually happened in the summer so before the UKAP awards but I only just remembered it and have no idea how to swap around posts! I can’t remember why exactly but me and some of my friends went back … Read More

Yeah man, you know that shit!!! It was probably my favourite moment of 2012 and a fucking awesome night regardless of who won what [:D] Me and my friend had a hotel room quite near to the venue and before … Read More

My friend Paul (The one who filmed me, Gina Snake & Faye Filli in London) had been in touch with his friend from Bournemouth who runs a studio where they stream for a live solo girl phone in channel on … Read More

Ok so lately I have had to deal with a lot of idiots. And I mean a LOT of them. I won’t list them all as 1) I would be here for at least 13 hours 17 minutes and 11 … Read More

I had a really awesome day last summer in London doing a trial shift on a tv channel and then filming some videos for my profile on here with a few top splogers [:)] First I had to go to … Read More

Man, did it suck big time!! I’d been really excited about going up north to stay with porn legend Michelle B and her boyfriend Matt for three days to shoot some content for our pages on here and of course … Read More

This was the day I first met my now ex- housemate Dave Tubs, who organizes porn star hot tub parties and also the first time I met my good friend Barbie & her partner. It is also one of my … Read More

Ok so there’s this really crazy dude I met through one of my friends when I used to live in my old house, who anyone who follows my Facebook or Twitter accounts will have seen me whittling on about, known … Read More

I want to both laugh and shed a tear when I think about this day. It was a joint shoot with the manager of Erotic Wrestling company MWW Productions and Phil who runs Festelle Entertainment, which is one of the … Read More

I have a cross- dressing cat called Scampy who spends most days running around with women’s underwear on his head and has really thick eyelashes and lots of eyebrows that look very feminine. I have recently taken part in a … Read More

One of my favourite companies to shoot for is One Tree Media aka the All Fetish Network based in Kent, which is basically a network of several softcore websites catering for light fetishes ranging from knicker flashing to clothes ripping … Read More

Last year, I had a really fun few days in Newcastle shooting for the Television X series “Freshers”, about student life, which was produced by the lovely Liselle Bailey [:)] I was living in Wales still at the time of … Read More

Last year I was contacted by another Television X producer asking me to be in his new series called “The Bonking Bin Man”. It sounded like a right old laugh so I took him up on his offer! This was … Read More

I was contacted last spring by the people behind the popular website Brooke Lee Playmates, asking me if I wanted to go and do a shoot for them. Their website is awesome and they have worked with loads of famous … Read More

A couple more memorable shoots I did early on in my career were for the people listed in the title of this post. I had a call from a guy who worked for the company Bluebird to see if I … Read More

One of the first films I ever did was for the popular tv channel Television X. I was asked to star in their 2012 Olympic Games Parody called “Chariots Of Jizz” which was shot in the very exotic and beautiful … Read More

Yep, the first one I’ve ever done- And I have no idea why I didn’t start doing this sooner. Everyone has been telling me that I should get a blog, as my life can be pretty crazy and I’ve always … Read More